Sleep Deprived

I have a horrible problem going to sleep, throughout the day I can be exhausted, but then at night time I become wide awake and can never go to sleep before 1 am. Or then there are the nights like this past friday when I am hanging out with awesome friends and I just never want the night to end so I stay up for hours, I didn't leave Mary's house until 2 am and it takes about 35 minutes to get home and then we had to clean up our house cause our parents were coming home so Chris and I were up til like 4 and then went to bed and woke up at 8 to go to work it's insane and the crazy thing is I would have stayed there even later if I didn't have to clean up the house, I think I may be a little mental! So last night I said "I'm going to bed early I fell asleep at 11 and woke up at 730, 8.5 hours of sleep woo hoo, that is more than I have gotten in a long time, the strangest thing is I am more exhauseted today than I was Saturday morning after 4 hours of sleep at most I don't get it! I have weird sleeping patterns that confuse me! Is 8 hours too much sleep for me IDK, all I know is I am crazy tired today, and I have like no energy!

Lovin' Life

This won't be a long post, but yesterday I had such a good day! Nothing special happened it was just one of those days where everything went good and I love that! It makes me appreciate everything I am blessed with in my life! I have an amazing family that I love and they just rock and I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for, I am sorry if I take any of you for granted, I love my family and friends so much! Also, I love the gospel for blessing me with everything I have, my health, my job, my family and my friends!

There's Gotta Be Somebody!

It's crazy, I had a pretty dang good day today, and I am not even gonna sit and act like I am bummed about something, so don't take it that way. I just have a lot on my mind right now and I love getting it out from time to time. I talked to a friend today and found out she is getting married soon, which is so exciting, and I am so happy for her, but it hit me in a way I didn't think it would. I used to like her a lot, nothing relationship wise ever happened between us but we did grow to be pretty close, and we became great friends. This made me wish I has something going for me like that right now. She told me some things that made me happy, we were talking about my relationship status, and since right now it is non existent I told her that, and she said a simple thing, "Don't worry, you're a great guy and you will find someone great" I loved hearing that cause it's true. I tend to get caught up in right now too much and I need to realize my future holds what I make it don't live just worrying about today. One of my favorite songs is "Gotta Be Somebody" by Nickelback and the line I always loved was "Cause nobody wants to be the last one there, cause everyone wants too feel like someone cares, somebody to love with my life in their hands, there's gotta be somebody for me like that, cause nobody wants to do it on their own and everyone wants too know their not alone, there's somebody else who feels the same somewhere, there's gotta be somebody for me out there" I love this so much cause it's true and I can easily relate to it. But I am in a great mindset right now, yeah there is someone I like a lot and I really want something to happen with, but I know if she isn't the one that there is someone out there, it could be someone I know or someone I have yet to meet, who knows, but all I do know is that very person probably feels the same way I do inside of them. I know the lord has a plan for me and I know that I will be happy and I am so excited to see what my future holds for me!

NBA playoffs 2011

As may of you know I want to be an English teacher, but if that fails my backup has always been to be a sports broadcaster and here is my practice for that!

It's that time of the year again! It's the NBA playoffs, It is such a rush, I am so excited to see the outcome of this season! Who would have thought that the Chicago Bulls would be the overall number 1 team, going into the season I bet a lot of people though LeBron and Bosh going to Miami would almost guarantee them a number 1 spot or Kobe would lead the Lakers to another number 1 spot or even Rondo, Pierce, Allen and Garnett would lead my Celtics to the number 1 seed, but none of them have a number 1 seed. That is what I love about the NBA, you never know what's gonna happen Derrick Rose is a stud and I feel deserves where he is right now! There will be some good match ups in the playoffs this year Spurs vs Grizzlies, I would have to pick the spurs, Thunder vs Nuggets, it's amazing to me how well the nuggets did after trading Melo but I still think that Kevin Durant will lead the Thunder to the win! I think the Mavericks will destroy the Blazers! And as much as I would love to see the Hornets destroy the Lakers I don't think that will be the outcome, The Lakers are just too good! Derrick Rose will lead the Bulls past an easy first round win over the Pacers! The Magic and Hawks should be an Interesting match up they are both really good teams but My guess is Orlando comes out on top in this one! Heat vs 76ers I am excited for this as many know LeBron is one of my favorite players and him making the jump to Miami I feel was his best Career move so far, I think the Heat will win this one pretty easily! CELTICS vs Knicks what an insane first round match up, i would love to say that my Celtics are gonna tear the Knicks apart but I know that is not true, this series will probably go 7 games and be intense all the way through but the Celtics are who I choose to come out on top!

In the second round i think it will be Spurs vs Thunder, and i believe this is where the first top seed falls, the Thunder I believe are just too good to be stopped so early. Lakers vs Mavericks again i hate to say it but the Lakers are too good especially when it comes to the playoffs so I think they may easily take this series! Bulls vs Magic I think it will be interesting but I think Derrick Rose will still have enough gas in him to lead the Bulls to the conference finals. Celtics vs Heat a match up I love but as the season has proved except in their last meeting the Celtics have dominated the Heat, so sorry LeBron you are the man but I think my C's move on!

Lakers vs. Thunder, Thunder are amazing but I think they hit their brick wall when they play the Lakers and send the Lakers back to the NBA finals for a fourth consecutive trying to win their third straight! Celtics vs Bulls, by this point Derrick Rose will have run out of gas and the rest of the Bulls just aren't good enough to stand up to Celtics, so my pick is the Celtics returning to the NBA finals for the third time in 4 years.

Celtics vs Lakers a rivalry as old as time, a rematch of last years championship! As much as I despise the Lakers, I love when these two teams play each other, especially in the finals, there is so much tension, the games are always intense no matter what the score is, My pick is the Celtics in Seven! Maybe I am being a little one sided because I am a Celtics fan but I have faith in my team especially in Rajon Rondo who I pick to be MVP, He is a beast!

I've got to admit that this NBA post season will not be the same without my best friend Aaron here to watch the games with, it will feel lonely and weird but it's all good, he's serving the lord and there is nothing better than doing that!

Take A Chance

Why is it that every time I am around someone I like I get so nervous and don't act like myself, it annoys me that all the time I just freeze up and and can't even hold a normal conversation, It is some kind of fear I have deep down in me, a fear that I have had since I was 16, a fear of losing a friendship, because of one bad experience I have let that fear weigh on my shoulders ever since. I wanna break it, I've got to break it. Yesterday on my drive back home I was deep in contemplation of what I can do to help myself change the "Live Like We're Dying" By Kris Allen came on my iPod and that song is kinda straight forward the chorus says "Yeah… gotta start, looking at the hand of the time we've been given here, this is all we got and we

gotta start thinkin' it, Every second counts on a clock that's tickin, gotta live like we're dying, We

only got 86 400 seconds in a day, To turn it all around or throw it all away, We gotta tell ‘em that

we love ‘em while we got the chance to say, Gotta live like we're dying"

It's so true, we don't have all the time in the world, basically in any aspect of our lives, we need to live our lives to the fullest, don't be scared be bold, no one will get anywhere hiding in fear, instead speak up, that's what I need to do, I need to speak up and stop being so nervous. Andrew hit me with a good line yesterday too, he said "Love's a gamble" and I never thought of it like that, but it's true, at some point you are gonna have to take a chance, a leap of faith, but you will never find out anything if you don't take the chance. So basically what this all boils down to, is be yourself, don't be scared, take your chances in any aspect of your lives, whether it be relationships, jobs, sports, school, and many other things, take your chances. I have found it easier and more relaxing to turn to my friends for advice and help in any situation and last night was another one of those times, so I just wanna say Thank you too Andrew and Emily for last night and all my friends for everything else, I got your back too!

As many of you may already know I have a strong love for poetry and plan on one day making my own book. So I am gonna start putting some of my poems up on here to see you you all feel about them, let me know what you think and be honest, criticism is never bad! This poem is one that I wrote in my poetry class that I hated at the start of it but my professor liked it and said he saw good potential in the poem, I revised and edited it so many times and put a lot of work into it that it has grown to be one of my favorites.

Rain Delay

Sitting there amongst friends,

the uncomfortable metal bleachers

don’t matter to us as we relax and enjoy

the baseball game. Out of nowhere

the sky darkens and clouds roll in.

“Please don’t rain” we pray out loud.

Suddenly the rain starts to fall. “Ladies

and gentlemen, due to the rain, the game

will be postponed.” We all empty the stands

into the dry brick building. Twenty minutes

of pouring rain pass, we stand in the dry,

warm, musty building, crammed together

with thousands of people. The heat is

unbearable, going out into the rain is

tempting. After contemplating it we finally

make the move toward the wet parking lot,

stepping out into the rain as the cold water,

rolls down our hot bodies and soaks us.

After a while of dancing in the rain with the

best of friends we take a seat up against the

wall, the rain slowing down still falling on us.

Looking up in the sky we see a rainbow, and

leaning back I hear the question, “Who needs more?”

A second of silence then, “Who needs the game?”

Trying to share the gospel

It makes me feel so happy when I know beyond a shadow of a doubt to know that the church is true, a person at work today asked me about the church and me and Danny tried explaining it to her and she didn't really like what she was hearing but she wasn't disrespectful, but some guy listening on just started bashing our religion, I wanted to challenge him but I knew that was not the right thing to do! But it did comfort me to know no matter what garbage people say about the church I still know that this is the true church! I love it so much, and I don't know what I would do with out it!

General Conference!!!!

General conference was last weekend, and I have to admit it was probably my favorite general conference since my family joined the church! It hit me hard and I absolutely loved. Everyone knows a lot of it was about marriage and how us men need to stop playing around and get married! That is very true the world seems to have a skewed view on marriage and it is pretty sad, marriage is an amazing thing! I got more than just marriage out of conference, Hope was a big thing I heard. I have had a lot of doubts in my mind because of the fact that I didn't finish my mission, sometimes it kind of brings me down but after this conference i got the strongest feeling that I will be fine, the lord will open different doors for me and that makes me feel so good and makes me feel the lords love even more in my life! Another thing I really enjoyed was David A. Bednar's talk on revelation, I love that he lets everyone know that not only prophets and apostles can receive revelation but you and I can as well! Overall my most favorite thing was the prophets and apostles testimonies of Christ, nothing is more powerful than the prophet testifying of Christ and that they were called to be apostles! I love this gospel so much!

I have been forced in to blogging again by Andrew so I am back get ready for The Truth's good ole blog!