I Am Gonna Be Like This

Okay so right now I am obsessed with Javier Colon, He has another song called "My Little Girl." It is about a man who was living on his own terms just having fun, and then he met his wife and later in life they had a daughter. Instantly his life became dedicated to his daughter and he would do anything for her. The song goes through from when she is born to when she is married with kids, and how no matter how young or old she is, she is still her daddy's little girl and he would do whatever for her. This song is so sweet. I am gonna be a father like that. When I eventually have kids I would do anything for them and my future wife. Javier Colon is an amazing singer and most of his songs have beautiful messages. Listen to him if you haven't yet.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgZNMy7giKE

"My Little Girl"

"Ok, Here's The Truth"

Once again, I am posting about a song that made me think a lot. Javier Colon just came out with his album "Come Through For You" and on that album he has a song called "Ok, Here's The Truth." This may possibly be one of the best songs I can remember hearing in a very long time. It literally brought tears to my eyes. This song is about A guy and his wife, his wife keeps coming home late everyday and is acting suspicious and sneaky. He keeps asking her what is going on and she makes up these excuses. Then she gets a phone call from a guy who told her to tell him the truth. The guy got mad and grabbed his things to leave because he believed she was having an affair and the she said to him in the song

"Okay here's the truth
It's not what you think
The man that you heard is head of oncology
I'm sorry I lied
To you all of those times
I didn't know how to tell you
I might not survive
Okay there's the truth
I've got six months to live
Only wanted what's best for you and the kids
I promise I'll fight
With all of my might
But if I lose this battle
I lived a good life
So baby just please hold my hand
And tell me that you understand"

So the guy ends up finding out his wife is sick and dying. The song makes the listener also believe she was having an affair at first. And then you hear this part. It made me honestly tear up. This song is beautiful and it made me think to not jump to conclusions even when things seem horrible, make sure you know what the truth is before you make important decisions. I love this song and I love the message.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0kSPV464RU

Listen To It Here

Unglued

So I have not posted in such a long time. My life has been a crazy roller coaster ride since the last time I wrote. I mentioned Nicole before and how happy she made me. Unfortunately, at least for the time things with her have ended. I was the happiest guy on the planet when I was with her. When things ended, my world shattered. I didn't know what to do. I was so sad and so down. I never knew a broken heart could feel so bad. I knew I had hurt before because of things in the past, but this made them all seem like a joke. I was in pain and I was sad, the saddest I can remember myself being since my grandfather passed away. I know it seems strange to compare this sadness to that, but I mean it I killed me. I would like to say that I am over it but I am not. I was and still am in love with her. I have my hope that things will be back to the way they were. I hope that we will be together. I can say I am not hurting the way I was. Which is a good thing. We still talk on a regular basis and I am very happy about that. Hopefully one day we will be together again. Who knows what is out there for me Maybe I am gonna be with her in the end, maybe I won't. I am keeping my eyes open and my head up for any opportunities that come my way. But no matter what happens, I can say this for sure, this whole experience has definitely helped me grow. I understand things so much better, Nicole is the first girl I have ever fallen in love with, will she be the only? Right now I hope so, but we will see what my future holds. I know now what it's like to love and to like. I realize now that in the past I may have acted like I liked someone when in reality I was attracted to them and they were fun, now I know myself better and I will know whether I am just flirting or I like someone. Falling in love can really change your perspective on many things. I also realize, sometimes you have to fight for love and I am fighting and holding on as much as I can. I would do anything for her. Through this all not only have I realized things about myself, I have also realized who some of my best friends are. A lot of my friends have been there for me as support through this all, But there has been 3 friends in particular who I feel have really been a great support for me and there for me when I needed friends the most and there to talk to me whenever, those friends are Mary, Jalenna and Erin. You 3 are awesome, I have no idea how I would have made it through this without you guys, I would probably still be down and depressed. So thanks for the late night calls, and the constant texting, I am sure you were probably getting so sick of it, but you have been there for me, and it means so much to me!!!! Thank you :)