We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Wow, I did not realize how long that it's been since I blogged.  Last time was when I was leaving Rexburg to go home for the summer, I was so excited to get back home for the summer, mainly to see Amanda, but also my family and all my other friends back there. Unfortunately I spent way too much time with Amanda and basically spending all the money I was saving, needless to say I was stupid.  Now it has come to the point that I have realize what everyone was telling me, "SHE IS NO GOOD." It took me far too long to realize this, but at least I can say that I have finally realized it.  When I got back to Rexburg she went psycho on me saying she was just using me and trying to make me out to be a horrible person when in reality she is.  She is EVERYTHING I don't want, she is why we have the word of wisdom and the guidelines we have so we don't turn out too be a person who thinks that marijuana, alcohol, drugs and so many other things are okay to do.  She sees nothing wrong with those things, some people she hangs out with are either in prison for long amounts of time because of crimes they have committed or they go into prison every six months for dealing drugs, the worst part is she thinks that is okay and normal. NO WAY, I do not wanna end up like that so I have finally made the right choice and just cut all ties with her.  I honestly would be perfectly fine never talking to her again.  Through it all, I still can't say that I regret it all, I do regret not listening to the people who care about me.  BUT I did learn so much from this failed relationship, things that will stick with me forever, thing I know that I never want in the person I end up marrying. I love the gospel and I love feeling the spirit, I can definitely say that I barely felt it this summer.  I am so happy to be back here in Rexburg where I can feel the spirit again and live the way I want to live.  I am sorry to all of my friends that I treated bad when you were just trying to help me cause you cared about me.  I was rude to a lot of you, but two stick out in my mind the most Jenny and Andrew. I love you two, and can not thank you enough for being there for me even though I was so mean and rude to you guys. I love everyone else too, I really don't know what I would do without you guys! I am so happy right now, for once in my life I am single and I am perfectly fine with being single right now (thanks for that advice Jalenna). I look back and realize I have never been more unhappy in my entire life than when I was with her, Andrew said the other day when I was really happy "I haven't seen you this happy in a long time" and that made me realize that until then I really hadn't been.  It's time for a new start for me and I am so excited to see what life has in store for me :)