I'm not perfect, but I swear I'm perfect for you!

Perfection seems to always be something on my mind, now I know that no one is perfect, but for some reason I always feel like I need to be perfect for the girl I like, whichever girl it may be. I have always felt this way at least since I can remember, until lately. I had my whole the recently that happened with Marisa, when I found out that she was engaged I said to myself "it is okay" I felt that finally I my mind was clear and I wasn't focused on being in a relationship, which is good. Right now just seems like a middle point in my life, I have got about 4 months left in Connecticut before I move out to Idaho for school. I was feeling like right now is the best time to just focus on work and prepare myself for school with no distraction from feelings for someone. Just when I thought that things were so simple I met someone, who may possibly be one of the best people I have ever met. It's definitely a fact that I am starting to like her, but it is even more of a fact that for once I am not just trying to jump into a relationship, I am just trying to build an amazingly awesome friendship that will continue to grow when I am out in Idaho! Yes, I want something to happen between us, but I am 100% okay with nothing happening right now. I love that fact that we are growing a strong friendship with her! I love even more how this whole situation is making me feel about myself! I have more confidence and belief in myself, which is always a good thing! But more importantly I have realized, I don't need to be perfect, that is just impossible, but I know that I will be perfect for my perfect person whoever that person may be! Yes I like her, yes I would love if something could happen with her, but NO I am not forcing anything, no I am not rushing anything. I am letting a good friendship grow stronger and stronger! I don't care if this friendship ends in a life long friendship or a relationship, however it ends I am one blessed person! I have some pretty amazing friends and I love adding more :) I just hope those friends that I have known for a long time will stay loyal to me and not try to ruin anything that is making me happy, if friends do that, they really aren't friends right? interesting thought huh? But I guess thats how you weed out the true friends and the fake ones! But I am happy, and I wanna stay that way, so many good things are happening in my life and I hope they continue to happen :)