Remember how I said I had to believe she was the one? What a joke haha! I am one indecisive person, at least in my mind. However I did honestly believe that she was the one. I had plans to move out to Provo at the end of this month just so I could be closer to her, most of my friends tried to talk me out of it. A lot didn't even like how I felt about her, not that they didn't like her they just strongly believed that she was not right for me. I, however didn't wanna listen, I liked her and that is all that I cared about. Then i got shot down, or so it felt. I was talking to her one night and she dropped a bomb on me, "He proposed to me" he being her boyfriend. I was shocked, I couldn't believe what I had just heard. My world was shattered, or was it? Usually when one hears news like that about the girl he swears is the one he gets depressed, WRONG!!!! I was surprisingly okay with it, yeah I was a little bummed but hey, I guess it wasn't meant to be. I texted Jalenna the next day and she told me "Ryan, you deserve better than that" and a lot of good things like that. Not saying that she is not a good person, she is just not meant for me and Jalenna helped me see that! I am still friends with that girl I still talk to her on a regular basis and I am happy for her. I however am still a confused person, I definitely have my eye on someone special right now and I am really hoping something does work out, but I am cool with whatever happens. I am the happiest that I have been in a long time and I have my friends and family to thank for that, even though a lot of my friends are gone or leaving soon! I can't wait to get out west and see what my future holds. It will be very exciting and it will be party time in Rexburg and Provo!
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