When All You Gotta Keep Is Strong

It is that time, I am heading home.  I leave Rexburg on Friday and will be on my way home Monday after spending a fun weekend in Provo with my brother and some of my closest friends, Jalenna, Mary, Eric, Daniel and so many more.  It should be fun, I need fun.  I am finally ready to move on from Amanda, every time that we have broken up I may have said that "we are done" but in my mind I knew that i still wanted to be with her, but this time I promised myself that I am done, I can't feel this way anymore.  I want too be happy and she was bringing me down and making me unhappy.  I was being judged by her because of my religion, basically because she wants to do things that are not the best and I refuse too and I did not like the fact that she did those things.  Whatever though, I am too good for that and I deserve so much better than that.  Have any of you seen How I Met Your Mother, it is such a good show.  The other day they talked about something that hit me strong, they said that in every relationship there is a reacher and a settler.  In that relationship I was the settler, by far.  I wanna reach I don't wanna settle, I especially do not wanna settle for someone that makes me feel like I am reaching, cause with her I was settling and accepting things that i don't want in my future spouse, I do not want to be with someone that I can't trust to be faithful to me. I also don't want someone that would not be a good example to kids.  I want my future kids to have a mother who is an amazing person and does not think it's okay to drink or smoke in front of her kids.  Going home will be awesome, I just need to avoid her at all costs. I will miss it here in Rexburg, I made some amazing friends, some that mean a lot to me and I can not wait to come back and be with them again.  The best part is that when I come back, I will not have the weight on my shoulder that I was carrying.  It's time to turn my life away from that pain and time to turn away from someone that only cares about a physical relationship, that is all she wanted and I wouldn't give that too her, I am not about to sacrifice important things in my life for anything, she didn't care about an emotional part, she wasn't ready for a relationship.  It's time to be happy and I am ready to be good with myself. It's time to move on and move along :)