I Am Gonna Be Like This

Okay so right now I am obsessed with Javier Colon, He has another song called "My Little Girl." It is about a man who was living on his own terms just having fun, and then he met his wife and later in life they had a daughter. Instantly his life became dedicated to his daughter and he would do anything for her. The song goes through from when she is born to when she is married with kids, and how no matter how young or old she is, she is still her daddy's little girl and he would do whatever for her. This song is so sweet. I am gonna be a father like that. When I eventually have kids I would do anything for them and my future wife. Javier Colon is an amazing singer and most of his songs have beautiful messages. Listen to him if you haven't yet.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgZNMy7giKE

"My Little Girl"

"Ok, Here's The Truth"

Once again, I am posting about a song that made me think a lot. Javier Colon just came out with his album "Come Through For You" and on that album he has a song called "Ok, Here's The Truth." This may possibly be one of the best songs I can remember hearing in a very long time. It literally brought tears to my eyes. This song is about A guy and his wife, his wife keeps coming home late everyday and is acting suspicious and sneaky. He keeps asking her what is going on and she makes up these excuses. Then she gets a phone call from a guy who told her to tell him the truth. The guy got mad and grabbed his things to leave because he believed she was having an affair and the she said to him in the song

"Okay here's the truth
It's not what you think
The man that you heard is head of oncology
I'm sorry I lied
To you all of those times
I didn't know how to tell you
I might not survive
Okay there's the truth
I've got six months to live
Only wanted what's best for you and the kids
I promise I'll fight
With all of my might
But if I lose this battle
I lived a good life
So baby just please hold my hand
And tell me that you understand"

So the guy ends up finding out his wife is sick and dying. The song makes the listener also believe she was having an affair at first. And then you hear this part. It made me honestly tear up. This song is beautiful and it made me think to not jump to conclusions even when things seem horrible, make sure you know what the truth is before you make important decisions. I love this song and I love the message.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0kSPV464RU

Listen To It Here

Unglued

So I have not posted in such a long time. My life has been a crazy roller coaster ride since the last time I wrote. I mentioned Nicole before and how happy she made me. Unfortunately, at least for the time things with her have ended. I was the happiest guy on the planet when I was with her. When things ended, my world shattered. I didn't know what to do. I was so sad and so down. I never knew a broken heart could feel so bad. I knew I had hurt before because of things in the past, but this made them all seem like a joke. I was in pain and I was sad, the saddest I can remember myself being since my grandfather passed away. I know it seems strange to compare this sadness to that, but I mean it I killed me. I would like to say that I am over it but I am not. I was and still am in love with her. I have my hope that things will be back to the way they were. I hope that we will be together. I can say I am not hurting the way I was. Which is a good thing. We still talk on a regular basis and I am very happy about that. Hopefully one day we will be together again. Who knows what is out there for me Maybe I am gonna be with her in the end, maybe I won't. I am keeping my eyes open and my head up for any opportunities that come my way. But no matter what happens, I can say this for sure, this whole experience has definitely helped me grow. I understand things so much better, Nicole is the first girl I have ever fallen in love with, will she be the only? Right now I hope so, but we will see what my future holds. I know now what it's like to love and to like. I realize now that in the past I may have acted like I liked someone when in reality I was attracted to them and they were fun, now I know myself better and I will know whether I am just flirting or I like someone. Falling in love can really change your perspective on many things. I also realize, sometimes you have to fight for love and I am fighting and holding on as much as I can. I would do anything for her. Through this all not only have I realized things about myself, I have also realized who some of my best friends are. A lot of my friends have been there for me as support through this all, But there has been 3 friends in particular who I feel have really been a great support for me and there for me when I needed friends the most and there to talk to me whenever, those friends are Mary, Jalenna and Erin. You 3 are awesome, I have no idea how I would have made it through this without you guys, I would probably still be down and depressed. So thanks for the late night calls, and the constant texting, I am sure you were probably getting so sick of it, but you have been there for me, and it means so much to me!!!! Thank you :)

Dreams :)

I LOVE LIFE!!!! It is amazing right now, I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life! Nicole came into my life at the perfect time, I am simply happy and that is all to be said, she is the absolute most amazing thing in my life right now, I am not trying to sound like a hopeless romantic, just stating fact, I am happy and I love it. I would do anything to stay this happy for the rest of my life :)

Living Louder

If you know me at all you know that I relate a lot of things in my life to music! What can I say I love music haha! My absolute favorite band The Cab came out with their new album Symphony Soldier last week and I must say that it is an amazing album, it's so good and it is kind of deep! So there is this one song on the album called "Living Louder" the whole song is great, it has a really good message to it. Part of the song says

"My only regret
Is having regrets
Traveled the world
I loved every step
And all I know is...

No one, no lives forever
But we will be remembered
For what we do right now

Baby, I'm living louder
And dreaming longer tonight
And baby, I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight

Because we're all just kids
Who grew up way too fast
Yeah, the good die young
But the great will always last"

When I heard this it hit me and made me think a lot. It made me think if I were to die tomorrow how would I be remembered? What would my family and friends think of me as? Am I living a life that I am happy with being remembered by? I would like to think that I am. But this is true so much of it. One line made me think of my group of friends, "Because we're all just kids who grew up way too fast" That is so true, I am in shock at the fact that I will be 23 in a month, it is so crazy, for the most part all of my friends are in their twenties, and it is weird to think that some of us have been hanging out since I was 14, back then we used to think of what it would be like to be the twenty year old people, and now here we are, where did the time go? Just realizing that time goes by so fast makes me realize life is a gift and not to take it for granted. I am gonna start being the best Ryan that I can be and I know that with the support of my friends and family it should be a pretty easy thing to do! We all need to live life to the fullest, do not live with regrets, move on from mistakes and don't let them weigh you down, repentance is a marvelous thing! So live your life as if there is no tomorrow, live the way you will want to be remembered!

I'm not perfect, but I swear I'm perfect for you!

Perfection seems to always be something on my mind, now I know that no one is perfect, but for some reason I always feel like I need to be perfect for the girl I like, whichever girl it may be. I have always felt this way at least since I can remember, until lately. I had my whole the recently that happened with Marisa, when I found out that she was engaged I said to myself "it is okay" I felt that finally I my mind was clear and I wasn't focused on being in a relationship, which is good. Right now just seems like a middle point in my life, I have got about 4 months left in Connecticut before I move out to Idaho for school. I was feeling like right now is the best time to just focus on work and prepare myself for school with no distraction from feelings for someone. Just when I thought that things were so simple I met someone, who may possibly be one of the best people I have ever met. It's definitely a fact that I am starting to like her, but it is even more of a fact that for once I am not just trying to jump into a relationship, I am just trying to build an amazingly awesome friendship that will continue to grow when I am out in Idaho! Yes, I want something to happen between us, but I am 100% okay with nothing happening right now. I love that fact that we are growing a strong friendship with her! I love even more how this whole situation is making me feel about myself! I have more confidence and belief in myself, which is always a good thing! But more importantly I have realized, I don't need to be perfect, that is just impossible, but I know that I will be perfect for my perfect person whoever that person may be! Yes I like her, yes I would love if something could happen with her, but NO I am not forcing anything, no I am not rushing anything. I am letting a good friendship grow stronger and stronger! I don't care if this friendship ends in a life long friendship or a relationship, however it ends I am one blessed person! I have some pretty amazing friends and I love adding more :) I just hope those friends that I have known for a long time will stay loyal to me and not try to ruin anything that is making me happy, if friends do that, they really aren't friends right? interesting thought huh? But I guess thats how you weed out the true friends and the fake ones! But I am happy, and I wanna stay that way, so many good things are happening in my life and I hope they continue to happen :)

This Is La Familia

Tomorrow is a day I wait for the whole year! It is my families annual family picnic! I love it every year it is always a blast! It always falls on the third Saturday in August! I always look forward too it! I have gotten so much closer with members of my family because of this annual picnic! my cousin Allison for example, not only has she become one of my absolute favorite cousins but she has also become one of my closest friends, and it is all because my mother decided some years ago to start having this annual picnic! In the past few years the picnic has turned in to more than just a family picnic, we have started inviting close friends, which has been great too! Essentially it still is just family, cause those friends who get invited feel like family! I am so excited for another year, especially since my Auntie who moved to Florida is coming up for it this year! I am so excited to see her, I miss her so much, she is less of an aunt and more of a second mother to me and I can not wait to see her! Any of my friends who can read this blog, I consider you close friends and if I haven't invited you to the picnic already than I am doing it now! You are invited to come and party with my family =)

"That's Ri-junk-ulous"

Last night was one of the best fhe nights that I have experienced in a while. I guess I have felt a little lost lately, not spiritually but emotionally. Not that I have been depressed, I guess I have just been bummed about a lot of friends leaving, some who are already gone! That is why I feel lost! Yeah I have got some good friends that are staying here! But i also have some friends that over the past few years that I have gotten pretty tight with Jalenna, Andrew, Mary, Eric, The Erika's and Derek just to mention a few and not to forget about Aaron, Darren and Ty who are on their missions! These people are some great friends who have had a strong impact in my life and I am sad that they won't be here in the fall! But back to last night, last night was great, Eric taught one of the best lessons I can remember in a long time, I felt the spirit so strongly! That just helped the rest of the night get better! Nothing amazing happened we just hung out as friends but it was just such a good night! Andrew, Mary, Eric, Bryan and I ended up staying late and watching Forever Strong together! That is such a good movie, if you have not seen it I suggest you watch it! It is such a good movie with such a good story! Honestly though my favorite part of watching the movie was the way Andrew freaks out at everything that happens in the movie, it was hilarious! The sad part of the night was that I had to say goodbye to Mary, there goes another friend leaving! But it's all good, last night was still great and life is great! I can't wait til I am out there with you guys! But I am gonna make the most of the time I have here with my friends here! Oh, I told you I would title my next post Ri-junk-ulous! That is all for you Andrew!

Too Good

Remember how I said I had to believe she was the one? What a joke haha! I am one indecisive person, at least in my mind. However I did honestly believe that she was the one. I had plans to move out to Provo at the end of this month just so I could be closer to her, most of my friends tried to talk me out of it. A lot didn't even like how I felt about her, not that they didn't like her they just strongly believed that she was not right for me. I, however didn't wanna listen, I liked her and that is all that I cared about. Then i got shot down, or so it felt. I was talking to her one night and she dropped a bomb on me, "He proposed to me" he being her boyfriend. I was shocked, I couldn't believe what I had just heard. My world was shattered, or was it? Usually when one hears news like that about the girl he swears is the one he gets depressed, WRONG!!!! I was surprisingly okay with it, yeah I was a little bummed but hey, I guess it wasn't meant to be. I texted Jalenna the next day and she told me "Ryan, you deserve better than that" and a lot of good things like that. Not saying that she is not a good person, she is just not meant for me and Jalenna helped me see that! I am still friends with that girl I still talk to her on a regular basis and I am happy for her. I however am still a confused person, I definitely have my eye on someone special right now and I am really hoping something does work out, but I am cool with whatever happens. I am the happiest that I have been in a long time and I have my friends and family to thank for that, even though a lot of my friends are gone or leaving soon! I can't wait to get out west and see what my future holds. It will be very exciting and it will be party time in Rexburg and Provo!

West Coast State Of Mind

Oh man, I WANT to get out west so bad. Today was just one of those days where I just don't know why I am still here. It's not that I hate Connecticut, cause I actually love this state, and I have great friends out here, and I am continuously making new ones which is great! But I just wanna be out west so bad! I couldn't focus at work today or yesterday! Obviously there are known reasons why I wanna be out there right now :) :) I don't think I need to say what that is haha! But I also want to be in school so bad! I am ready for my future and for a new scene! It is gonna be excellent and amazing! I can not wait to get out there! :)

Everything's Fine

How many of you have heard of The Summer Set? If you haven't you need too check them out they are an amazing band! Whether you have heard of them or not you need to listen to their new album "Everything's Fine" it is such an amazing album! I didn't know what to expect waiting for it to come out! But they are so talented! This album is so easy to relate too, at least for me! If any of you read my last post, that situation is all I think about when I listen to this album. Brian Dales (the lead singer) has such an amazing and unique voice! Seriously check the album out!

Perfectly Imperfect

Some may think that I am crazy, insane, or mental. Most of my friends probably think I am just an indecisive person who likes every girl who comes his way, It is not true, I always keep my mind open for anything. But when you meet a girl who totally changes your mindset on things, one would easily start liking them. Tuesday night was potentially one of the best nights of my life. I met a girl that I felt one of the most amazing connections with. She totally knocked me of my feet. I have always felt that I am not good enough or I just can't connect with the girls I have liked because of the things that I have done in my past. I always felt a lack of connection, as if I could not relate with them, because we don't have things in common to help each other with. Well I was wrong, I met a girl who like me has had struggles, and has experienced a lot of the same things that I have experienced. She is someone I can truly relate with, and someone who can definitely help me with things and I can help her if need be. I have never felt so strong about someone in my entire life, and I know I only just met her but this hit me like a ton of bricks, and I know there are people who a judging this situation, but for the first time I don't care what anyone thinks, there is only one persons thoughts that I care about and I bet you can guess who that is. If anyone else wants to judge, let them, it's not gonna change my mind. I also know people may judge saying "she has a boyfriend" well I know that, but when you meet someone that strikes you so strong, you honestly don't care, I don't wanna be the jerk to break something up, but I have gotta believe that he isn't meant for her and that I am, I do believe that. But now she was sent home way to early, just as fast as I met her she was gone, I met her tuesday and she went back home thursday and she was suppose to be here for a year and she is gone. But I still believe what I believe, and just because she is gone does not mean that I will stop. She is awesome and makes me so hopeful and happy for my future! I can't wait until I go out to school, she lives close to school and I will be able to see her more! 5 and half months! :-) :-) :-) :-)

Over Thinking

Maybe I am over thinking, I honestly hope that is what I am doing. But why does it seem that if I have feelings for someone and they don't share those feelings why does it seem that once they find out how I feel, the friendship gets weird, it doesn't need to be that way. I just want good friendships to stay good, right now I could care less about the relationship aspect of things, frankly I don't even want a relationship right now, I just want friendships to grow especially the ones that are growing strong. Hopefully I am over thinking while I am writing this cause I can't deal with losing friendships or them growing apart!

Power Of Prayer

Yesterday at fhe Katie taught a really good lesson about prayer and it wasn't until I got home last night that I realized the impact that the lesson had on me. I was not doubting the power of prayer, I know that prayer is a very powerful thing, especially since i just used it this past week with my whole BYU Idaho fiasco and heavenly father answered that prayer quickly and powerfully. But what I realized after the lesson that I do sometimes take prayer for granted. I really thought about it and I realized that I try to pray in the morning and at night before I go to bed. Unfortunately sometimes I tend to forget, usually I will just be like it's okay to miss one, but now I realize that is not true, I need to say my prayers always. Something else I realized is that I do always tend to say prayers when I need something from heavenly father, which isn't a bad thing but it definitely should not be the only prayers that I say. Katie told us that she had a challenge that for week she could only say prayers thanking heavenly father and not asking for things, I realize how hard that is, but I think I am going to try it. Her lesson really hit me yesterday. Prayer is such a powerful thing that we can so easily do, and too many of us take it for granted, prayer is something that should not be taken advantage of. Thanks Katie for such a good lesson.

A Different Twist

Life is crazy, and still no matter how up or down I am I still Love it. Last Sunday may have been one of the craziest nights that has happened to me, I loved it though. I had possibly one of the best weeks that I have had in a very long time, even though a couple so called bad things happened, the biggest one being when I found out that I was one credit short of being able to transfer to BYU Idaho for January. Usually I would be pretty upset in a situation like this but I wasn't, I panicked that's for sure, cause I thought that I would have to pay $500 that I didn't have to take a class at MCC so I could get that one credit. But instead of getting mad, I stayed calm, and I prayed and asked heavenly father that things would work out the way that they were supposed too. Later that night, Brother Weber told me that he would give me a grade for this past semesters institute class as long as I wrote a paper for him on what I learned this past semester in the New Testament. I was so relieved that he had told me this. He saved me $500 and will be able to give me the credit that I need for my application to get me out to BYU Idaho. Today some things happened that weren't the best things for me but, instead of letting myself get down and sad, I am taking as an opportunity to grow and who knows maybe I will still have the outcome that I want to have happen in this particular situation, maybe it will just happen in a different way than I hoped for, but whatever is meant to happen will happen, I have faith in that. A month ago if these things happened to me I'd be angry and super sad feeling but because lately I have been striving so hard to be the best I can be things are getting easier! My faith is growing so strong, and I know whatever happens to me is all apart of heavenly father has in store for me, I know that, I have no doubt in that, so what's the point in getting mad? There really isn't just because things don't work out the way I want them too doesn't mean they won't work out for what's best for me. I have no doubt that things are gonna work out great for me, I love my life and I have never been happier! One of best friends Erika pointed out to me that I am so happy because of my faith and I know she is right! I have the best friends anyone can ask for! I love all of you :)

Happiness

Life is great, what more can I say, I am so happy with life right now! I feel like I haven't been this happy in a very long time! I'm not saying that I was depressed or anything but I just wasn't as happy as I am now, I guess I just too much on my mind, stuff that was just weighing me down and now that I have solved those problems Life is just even better than it has been! I am getting so close with my group of friends and I love that! I think for awhile I was holding back from getting close cause Aaron and Darren are gone and it's hard to be without my best friends, and don't get me wrong, I still miss them a lot but I am happy to be getting so close with my group now! They rock! To top things off I had one of the best Sunday's ever yesterday. Sean got baptized and that was amazing, I felt the spirit so strongly there, and I was just insanely happy for him and I know that he is absolutely gonna be an amazing member of this church and that he is going to do great things. I felt so honored that he asked me to speak on baptism, it meant so much to me! I love that kid! Then after that we were invited to go to Mary's brothers house and have dinner with her family and that was just so much fun! Her family is so awesome, it was a blast! Then the day ended with the CES fireside by Sister Wixom! That was so good too! I loved it! It was great things to hear! All in all life is just amazing! I couldn't ask for a better group of friends!

Are you happy Andrew, I will blog more just for you haha! Miss you bro!

Sleep Deprived

I have a horrible problem going to sleep, throughout the day I can be exhausted, but then at night time I become wide awake and can never go to sleep before 1 am. Or then there are the nights like this past friday when I am hanging out with awesome friends and I just never want the night to end so I stay up for hours, I didn't leave Mary's house until 2 am and it takes about 35 minutes to get home and then we had to clean up our house cause our parents were coming home so Chris and I were up til like 4 and then went to bed and woke up at 8 to go to work it's insane and the crazy thing is I would have stayed there even later if I didn't have to clean up the house, I think I may be a little mental! So last night I said "I'm going to bed early I fell asleep at 11 and woke up at 730, 8.5 hours of sleep woo hoo, that is more than I have gotten in a long time, the strangest thing is I am more exhauseted today than I was Saturday morning after 4 hours of sleep at most I don't get it! I have weird sleeping patterns that confuse me! Is 8 hours too much sleep for me IDK, all I know is I am crazy tired today, and I have like no energy!

Lovin' Life

This won't be a long post, but yesterday I had such a good day! Nothing special happened it was just one of those days where everything went good and I love that! It makes me appreciate everything I am blessed with in my life! I have an amazing family that I love and they just rock and I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for, I am sorry if I take any of you for granted, I love my family and friends so much! Also, I love the gospel for blessing me with everything I have, my health, my job, my family and my friends!

There's Gotta Be Somebody!

It's crazy, I had a pretty dang good day today, and I am not even gonna sit and act like I am bummed about something, so don't take it that way. I just have a lot on my mind right now and I love getting it out from time to time. I talked to a friend today and found out she is getting married soon, which is so exciting, and I am so happy for her, but it hit me in a way I didn't think it would. I used to like her a lot, nothing relationship wise ever happened between us but we did grow to be pretty close, and we became great friends. This made me wish I has something going for me like that right now. She told me some things that made me happy, we were talking about my relationship status, and since right now it is non existent I told her that, and she said a simple thing, "Don't worry, you're a great guy and you will find someone great" I loved hearing that cause it's true. I tend to get caught up in right now too much and I need to realize my future holds what I make it don't live just worrying about today. One of my favorite songs is "Gotta Be Somebody" by Nickelback and the line I always loved was "Cause nobody wants to be the last one there, cause everyone wants too feel like someone cares, somebody to love with my life in their hands, there's gotta be somebody for me like that, cause nobody wants to do it on their own and everyone wants too know their not alone, there's somebody else who feels the same somewhere, there's gotta be somebody for me out there" I love this so much cause it's true and I can easily relate to it. But I am in a great mindset right now, yeah there is someone I like a lot and I really want something to happen with, but I know if she isn't the one that there is someone out there, it could be someone I know or someone I have yet to meet, who knows, but all I do know is that very person probably feels the same way I do inside of them. I know the lord has a plan for me and I know that I will be happy and I am so excited to see what my future holds for me!

NBA playoffs 2011

As may of you know I want to be an English teacher, but if that fails my backup has always been to be a sports broadcaster and here is my practice for that!

It's that time of the year again! It's the NBA playoffs, It is such a rush, I am so excited to see the outcome of this season! Who would have thought that the Chicago Bulls would be the overall number 1 team, going into the season I bet a lot of people though LeBron and Bosh going to Miami would almost guarantee them a number 1 spot or Kobe would lead the Lakers to another number 1 spot or even Rondo, Pierce, Allen and Garnett would lead my Celtics to the number 1 seed, but none of them have a number 1 seed. That is what I love about the NBA, you never know what's gonna happen Derrick Rose is a stud and I feel deserves where he is right now! There will be some good match ups in the playoffs this year Spurs vs Grizzlies, I would have to pick the spurs, Thunder vs Nuggets, it's amazing to me how well the nuggets did after trading Melo but I still think that Kevin Durant will lead the Thunder to the win! I think the Mavericks will destroy the Blazers! And as much as I would love to see the Hornets destroy the Lakers I don't think that will be the outcome, The Lakers are just too good! Derrick Rose will lead the Bulls past an easy first round win over the Pacers! The Magic and Hawks should be an Interesting match up they are both really good teams but My guess is Orlando comes out on top in this one! Heat vs 76ers I am excited for this as many know LeBron is one of my favorite players and him making the jump to Miami I feel was his best Career move so far, I think the Heat will win this one pretty easily! CELTICS vs Knicks what an insane first round match up, i would love to say that my Celtics are gonna tear the Knicks apart but I know that is not true, this series will probably go 7 games and be intense all the way through but the Celtics are who I choose to come out on top!

In the second round i think it will be Spurs vs Thunder, and i believe this is where the first top seed falls, the Thunder I believe are just too good to be stopped so early. Lakers vs Mavericks again i hate to say it but the Lakers are too good especially when it comes to the playoffs so I think they may easily take this series! Bulls vs Magic I think it will be interesting but I think Derrick Rose will still have enough gas in him to lead the Bulls to the conference finals. Celtics vs Heat a match up I love but as the season has proved except in their last meeting the Celtics have dominated the Heat, so sorry LeBron you are the man but I think my C's move on!

Lakers vs. Thunder, Thunder are amazing but I think they hit their brick wall when they play the Lakers and send the Lakers back to the NBA finals for a fourth consecutive trying to win their third straight! Celtics vs Bulls, by this point Derrick Rose will have run out of gas and the rest of the Bulls just aren't good enough to stand up to Celtics, so my pick is the Celtics returning to the NBA finals for the third time in 4 years.

Celtics vs Lakers a rivalry as old as time, a rematch of last years championship! As much as I despise the Lakers, I love when these two teams play each other, especially in the finals, there is so much tension, the games are always intense no matter what the score is, My pick is the Celtics in Seven! Maybe I am being a little one sided because I am a Celtics fan but I have faith in my team especially in Rajon Rondo who I pick to be MVP, He is a beast!

I've got to admit that this NBA post season will not be the same without my best friend Aaron here to watch the games with, it will feel lonely and weird but it's all good, he's serving the lord and there is nothing better than doing that!

Take A Chance

Why is it that every time I am around someone I like I get so nervous and don't act like myself, it annoys me that all the time I just freeze up and and can't even hold a normal conversation, It is some kind of fear I have deep down in me, a fear that I have had since I was 16, a fear of losing a friendship, because of one bad experience I have let that fear weigh on my shoulders ever since. I wanna break it, I've got to break it. Yesterday on my drive back home I was deep in contemplation of what I can do to help myself change the "Live Like We're Dying" By Kris Allen came on my iPod and that song is kinda straight forward the chorus says "Yeah… gotta start, looking at the hand of the time we've been given here, this is all we got and we

gotta start thinkin' it, Every second counts on a clock that's tickin, gotta live like we're dying, We

only got 86 400 seconds in a day, To turn it all around or throw it all away, We gotta tell ‘em that

we love ‘em while we got the chance to say, Gotta live like we're dying"

It's so true, we don't have all the time in the world, basically in any aspect of our lives, we need to live our lives to the fullest, don't be scared be bold, no one will get anywhere hiding in fear, instead speak up, that's what I need to do, I need to speak up and stop being so nervous. Andrew hit me with a good line yesterday too, he said "Love's a gamble" and I never thought of it like that, but it's true, at some point you are gonna have to take a chance, a leap of faith, but you will never find out anything if you don't take the chance. So basically what this all boils down to, is be yourself, don't be scared, take your chances in any aspect of your lives, whether it be relationships, jobs, sports, school, and many other things, take your chances. I have found it easier and more relaxing to turn to my friends for advice and help in any situation and last night was another one of those times, so I just wanna say Thank you too Andrew and Emily for last night and all my friends for everything else, I got your back too!

As many of you may already know I have a strong love for poetry and plan on one day making my own book. So I am gonna start putting some of my poems up on here to see you you all feel about them, let me know what you think and be honest, criticism is never bad! This poem is one that I wrote in my poetry class that I hated at the start of it but my professor liked it and said he saw good potential in the poem, I revised and edited it so many times and put a lot of work into it that it has grown to be one of my favorites.

Rain Delay

Sitting there amongst friends,

the uncomfortable metal bleachers

don’t matter to us as we relax and enjoy

the baseball game. Out of nowhere

the sky darkens and clouds roll in.

“Please don’t rain” we pray out loud.

Suddenly the rain starts to fall. “Ladies

and gentlemen, due to the rain, the game

will be postponed.” We all empty the stands

into the dry brick building. Twenty minutes

of pouring rain pass, we stand in the dry,

warm, musty building, crammed together

with thousands of people. The heat is

unbearable, going out into the rain is

tempting. After contemplating it we finally

make the move toward the wet parking lot,

stepping out into the rain as the cold water,

rolls down our hot bodies and soaks us.

After a while of dancing in the rain with the

best of friends we take a seat up against the

wall, the rain slowing down still falling on us.

Looking up in the sky we see a rainbow, and

leaning back I hear the question, “Who needs more?”

A second of silence then, “Who needs the game?”

Trying to share the gospel

It makes me feel so happy when I know beyond a shadow of a doubt to know that the church is true, a person at work today asked me about the church and me and Danny tried explaining it to her and she didn't really like what she was hearing but she wasn't disrespectful, but some guy listening on just started bashing our religion, I wanted to challenge him but I knew that was not the right thing to do! But it did comfort me to know no matter what garbage people say about the church I still know that this is the true church! I love it so much, and I don't know what I would do with out it!

General Conference!!!!

General conference was last weekend, and I have to admit it was probably my favorite general conference since my family joined the church! It hit me hard and I absolutely loved. Everyone knows a lot of it was about marriage and how us men need to stop playing around and get married! That is very true the world seems to have a skewed view on marriage and it is pretty sad, marriage is an amazing thing! I got more than just marriage out of conference, Hope was a big thing I heard. I have had a lot of doubts in my mind because of the fact that I didn't finish my mission, sometimes it kind of brings me down but after this conference i got the strongest feeling that I will be fine, the lord will open different doors for me and that makes me feel so good and makes me feel the lords love even more in my life! Another thing I really enjoyed was David A. Bednar's talk on revelation, I love that he lets everyone know that not only prophets and apostles can receive revelation but you and I can as well! Overall my most favorite thing was the prophets and apostles testimonies of Christ, nothing is more powerful than the prophet testifying of Christ and that they were called to be apostles! I love this gospel so much!

I have been forced in to blogging again by Andrew so I am back get ready for The Truth's good ole blog!